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Nerves
“Social anxiety can be a daunting challenge, causing overthinking and excessive worry about social situations. When combined with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), social anxiety can be amplified by emotional dysregulation, hypersensitivity to rejection, and fear of abandonment.“
Unfortunately this is one of my biggest problems. I remember when I was 20 years old and working in a personnel office, my manager said:- “Good morning”. I opened my mouth to reply and burst into tears. Embarresmment for both of us!
I couldn’t explain what was wrong and I am not sure I can now. My confidence was just underground it was so low! My moods change at the speed of camera shutters and so it is imposiible to plan ahead.
Once A few years ago I was doing a DIY course at my local adult night school and I was one of only 3 females and older than the others. The male teacher thought it was funny to make jokes about my age and looks. He once said “No-one could post knickers throughj your front door, They would be a foot wide and metal.” Then he said “you can get tools cheap at this shop but you have to queue. No point you doing it, you would be ignored”
Because I got upset I was asked to leave the class and did not have the courage to fight for myself. So I guess I let a masogenistic bully win! But how often do we get bullied because we just do not have the confidence to fight for ourselves?
borderline personality disorder 