borderline personality disorder

:-Where to go?

Common Symptoms

• plunging headfirst into relationships—or ending them just as quickly.
• A pattern of intense and unstable relationships with family, friends, and loved ones.
• A distorted and unstable self-image or sense of self.
• Impulsive and often dangerous behaviors, such as spending sprees, unsafe sex, substance misuse, reckless driving, and binge eating. However, if these behaviors happen mostly during times of elevated mood or energy, they may be symptoms of a mood disorder and not borderline personality disorder.
• Self-harming behavior, such as cutting.
• Recurring thoughts of suicidal behaviors or threats.
• Intense and highly variable moods, with episodes lasting from a few hours to a few days.
• Chronic feelings of emptiness.
• Inappropriate, intense anger or problems controlling anger.
• Feelings of dissociation, such as feeling cut off from oneself, observing oneself from outside one’s body, or feelings of unreality.

So you have got here. Now where on earth do you go?

It can feel like the world has given up on you and, in reality, they probably have! All you can do is create a world worth living for youself? Relying on others has probably been the pattern but that really will not work now so how do you cope when everyone walks away with their head in their hands and you look around at complete emptiness?

The NHS offers all stages nothin but DBT which can feel utterly innappropriate at this stage and even do more harm than good but guidlines have become so rigid that even discussion of alternatives is denied the sufferer so you really are on your own.

Focus on creating a formatted daily plan for yourself!

It may feel that it is all that is left to you. It is not impossible. Avoid all triggers and use what works for you!

Fight back

So I have been in awful crisis and am now beginning “fightback” period. It is hard as you inevitably feel like total shit.

I have apologized to my husband and therapist for being a total cow. It helps to describe in minute detail what was going on in my head. DBT is helping with this. I am now in a position where I know they are on my side and I want to live. I am able to recognise why certain emotions became out of control and find understanding in my overblown reactions to seemingly small statements and events.